A good sign . . . but it worries me a bit. :)

I wonder how I became such a perfectionist. I didn't used to be that way . . . so I thought. Truth is, that when you're 370 pounds, you don't expect that much out of yourself because you really can't physically DO that much. Now that I can do anything . . . I feel I should be able to do EVERYTHING!! Perhaps simultaneously. I have followed the post-op rules very closely and have done better than most, which is amazing for me! I can't remember an eating plan I have ever followed for a year before . . . and none of the others are as hard as the post-op diet plan!! Today, the nurse from Dr. Simper's office came to my company to give a brown bag lecture about excuses we make when it comes to eating healthier and taking care of ourselves better. It was fantastic and I realized how far I have come in the past year. She talked to me after and said she was surprised I am still following the low carb/no sugar rule still and said it was okay to relax a bit on it. She said that a few bites of cake at a party, etc isn't going to hurt me UNLESS it is a trigger food for overeating. She said to remember moderation and start enjoying healthy carbs again (like breads/grains). So at the store today, I allowed myself to buy a turkey wrap. I haven't eaten it yet, but I will this weekend. She also encouraged me to cut back on exercise, which is strange . . . when I was super morbidly obese, the doctors wanted me to exercise and now that I've lost so much weight, they tell me to stop. I saw the internist this Monday and she said I was in a strange heart rhythm. She gave me a beta blocker in hopes it would help, which it has. I'm also deficient in B1 (thiamin) again and have to add some serious replacement to my daily routine. No wonder I have been so forgetful again and my legs hurt!! I've been banned from exercise for another week!! AARGH. I'm also banned from caffeine, yet the new doctor forgot to order a CBC!! I'm not impressed so far. Anyway . . that's it for an update for this week. I've worked so many hours and have been pretty stressed out with all the new job responsibilities. I'm so grateful to have a good, well-paying job, but the stress of being new is pretty rough. I'm exhausted and I have relief society presidency duties early Saturday morning!! I really need to learn to say no more often! BTW . . . I found out that I will be in between classes for a few more weeks, as I have to come up with $290 to continue school. Right now . . . it's going to be a few weeks. I get three weeks. A coworker joked today about considering prostitution. I wonder if there is a market for overweight women with groovy skin?? LOLOL